» Friday, August 25, 2006
rahhhhh. bmr paper was, ok. i suppose. i tried. i tried.
this week has been one of the worst ones for me. school, family, friends (singular actually), singaporeans. gaaaaaawd. hate it. i know i had that post at the start of the week about being happy and all that shit. BUT GUESS WHAT, things just went crappy after that. and now after the bmr paper, only one word left: miserable.
i'm relying a lot on the exams to pull up my grades. let's hope that wish pulls through.
i'm too angry and hot-tempered for my own good. hence making other ppl worry about my mental state of mind.
my mother, nvm. she's just being herself. i learnt from her. -rolls eyes-
singaporeans are too annoying. i shld just migrate, or kill all the shitass brainless ppl in this country. i'd pick the former.
grrrrrrr. alright 1 more paper left. come on sa. you can make it for film. don't let other things get to you. come on.
» Thursday, August 24, 2006
aviators + dark curly hair + buff body = happy sa
presenting
well, any kind of shades would do really.
» Tuesday, August 22, 2006
so while having a little conversation with bradley, i've come to realise what a BLOODY BORING life i have now. seriously. all i do is study or do projects or go for council/bsc/whatever meetings. and i'm so loner-fied! it's disgusting. i dread it. and i'm always hanging around couples (haha) and no prizes for guessing...LAMP POST (added fact that i'm taller than your average girl).
sometimes it gets depressing and to top it all off, i get some shitass dickhead who constantly pisses me off and it's always about the same issue. let's see, what else is there...
sometimes i wish i could be the perfect friend. but that doesn't mean that my friend would be perfect. because ppl do screw up, ppl do things to each other and guess what, sometimes you/i am the one that ends up getting hurt. BUT no one's perfect. so who's to blame?
so back to my main point again, my life is so boring. there are only bad things to worry about and just the tiny things that the girls and i laugh over that cheer me up and make things seem less boring.
but today, seeing the disabled girl at macs made me happy. i've always wanted to be around someone like that, someone i could help. it's just really heartening to see them all smiley, eating french fries. and it's at times like these that i realise, i SHOULD be happy for all that i have. my limbs work fine, my brain too (i think), i have my family around, my friends (the past and present), an education, everything. so what if my life is boring, at least i have what i have today. =)
i can't believe this entry just happened. so many things are running through my head now. GAHHHHHHHHHH. but at least i can smile at the last paragraph and be happy.
» Sunday, August 20, 2006
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. emotional blackmail always works. =D things seem to be better now. niehaha. sometimes crying does help! hor jill hor? -grin-
anywayyyyyyyy. school's come to an end. BUT still got 2 exams to sit for before i can finally say HOORAY. ok actually not really, cos after that there's still the stewpid results. hmm. OK whatever sa. yessss can't wait for the hols! more $$, more sleep, slightly lesser time spent in sch, more time out with friends (i hope). omgomgomg can't wait. wheeeeeee.
but for now, MUST. FOCUS. ON. BMR. AND. FILM. gahhhhhhhhhh.
i love jack. and ryu. ESPECIALLY ryu. hahaha. thanks for keeping me company babyyyyyyy. (harhar)
